It’s December Already
Well hello the final month of the year, where there is no big achievement I have accomplished so far. Even so, here I am trying to deal with cherishing every single things I have in my whole life as wise man said
“Happines starts when you can be gratefull for everything you have, instead of longing for something you haven’t had”.
Through this though life phases, its’ okay to feel kinda tired, unmotivated and like there is nothing exciting will coming up. I capped those off by staring at the ceiling, listening to Dr.Fahrudin Faiz’s speach about philoshopy of life. I felt this way for several days which I disconnected to the society for sometimes.
At some moment, I was just spontaneously crying for something which I didn’t know. All I had to do to the next day was just getting things done towards my daily routine. Nothing special and life was merely the same.
My anxiety sunk in and had me reflacting to where I put all my feelings. I wondered if I was overthinking to things that never done, if I was put so much expectations to someone else or If I was just placing so much attention to the people who will think about me.
I questioned if I was unhappy to this entire of life. But truthfully, I didn’t think I was. I am still grateful for being me who trying her best to something she believed in, especilly religion and keep the faith.For my family who let me be who I am, for my mom who always be patient, eventho she knows how crazy I am for making a decision. For my father who almost never say to my plan, because I know on his silent there are so much love that not being spoken . For my sister and brother who always support what I’ve done whatever it is as long as in positive way. For my friends who gave me lessons of life both sadness and happiness.
Last but not least, who ever out there at this moment,if in the same headspace I was in, I hope you are okey. This doesn’t mean you are in the wrong place. You are in the right place and the right time, not too fast or too slow. Sometimes this life looks like tiresome,lonely, happy, sad , confused and so on. Take a deep breathe, all the probelms seems like cold water in a glass which being held by our hand, even if it’s too small but if we hold it all day long, It’s gonna be so heavy. Otherwise,if we put it down in a minute, but then take it back , It will not be a burdensome task. That’s life which sometimes all we need is just put it down in a minute, take a rest, once the energy is already fully enough we can continue our duties as human beeing.
Thank you for staying alive and keeping smile! :)
